Looking for love

So after what's been years of not writing on this blog, 4 yrs to be exact,  I have decided to use this outlet as i have soooo many things to vent about lol.

Its been so long, I've thought about deleting this blog, as i have no followers and really, it will get lost in the millions of other blogs online these days. But oh well, here goes.....

So a little back story....I am officially single.....it was a rough couple of years, with lots of uncertainty and tears.....Break ups really suck actually! especially when you break up but are still in love with that person! So after a long relationship with one of the kindest, most good hearted man i have ever known.....we finally had the guts to say goodbye to each other....It was so difficult because honestly there was nothing wrong with our relationship, we were a good match for each other. I will save this for another blog.....i really don't have it in me to hash it all out.....its still a sore spot ..... :( .....when i can stop tears from flowing when i think of him, i guess that's when i will know i am ready to talk about it..... Anyhow, who knows maybe one day, our paths will cross again.....maybe not :( .... regardless, I wish him nothing but a lifetime of happiness....

So, since I am now a single lady....I have ventured onto the online dating scene once again....And really, it feels like a waste of time most days. But i am hopeful, that i will find that one person that will be compatible to me. Let me try and give you all a glimpse into a typical day on the online dating scene.
Let me start by saying that being 48, its like a magic number, a jackpot, a hole in one, in terms of age.....my age makes me very popular. From men under the age of 30 to men my age and older.... Why you may ask? Well, cause a woman of 48 is a MILF and or a Cougar.....A MILF being slang for a mother id like to fuck and a Cougar being a woman looking to have sex with younger men.....So because of this, you can just imagine how many emails i get on a daily basis.....So from the young guns of under 30, i am of high interest cause many want a teacher ...someone experienced in the bedroom...ha! And for the others, a fling, a fun night, a friend with benefits.....anything to avoid a commitment lol. So since this seems to be the repertoire of men on these online dating sites, most messages are rude, vulgar and disrespectful. So here is where my problem comes in.

What every happened to a nice casual conversation? Have men just completely given up on trying to converse with women? Do they think that asking a woman how big her breasts are or how often she masturbates is a way of getting to know her? Honestly, and i cant even blame it on age or immaturity....its all men of all ages.....where are all the gentlemen at? How does a single woman get to know a man if he cant even hold a conversation without losing focus and turning to lewd comments or conversation.

Now don't get me wrong, i am not a prude or a cold woman, anyone who knows me, knows that i am an open book. I have no issues with any type of conversation as long as its respectful and in good taste, but really, can u all just save the questions about my favorite sexual position for when i'm actually planning to have sex with you? lol

I get it, you're a man, you're sex deprived, you're lonely, you're horny.....uhhh hello, if you don't want to be all those things, focus. Instead of trying to just get a temporary fix on your current situation, focus on keeping up a conversation, make a connection, maybe that will be a permanent solution to your situation.

I know you somehow have been fooled to believe that women enjoy this kind of conversation....maybe some do, but please don't lump us all in the same boat.....for some of us its a complete turn off!! We need some interesting conversation, a flow, a dialogue. Anyone can ask questions and get answers but it takes a special something to be able to hold and have a conversation about anything or nothing with a total stranger online. That conversation might just start up a spark to something bigger and better.

So here is the dilemna....the life of a single woman, looking for love online....sighhh